When I’m extremely emotional I close my eyes and
I see blue stars on a black background.
I’ve been that way for as long as I can remember.
Even back to when I was a little girl.
All I see are blue stars lately.
It really is horrible to feel helpless.
Especially when you’ve given all the help that you could over time.
Apparently putting others first in your life and
doing your best to be a good person just isn’t good enough.
I gave tolerance and understanding.
I gave time and patience.
I gave trust and love.
I gave it my all.
What I thought was a rough patch was apparently enough for others to
I can’t dwell on the “what if’s” in life.
I need to focus on the “what was” and more importantly the “what is.”
I need to find that “whatever it takes” attitude again.
I’m just seeing blue stars….